virginity and politics

currently playing>> akin ka na lang by the itchyworms..
im feeling>> "in the monday blues"


*another one i came up with during class. man, i hafta stop drifting off. (hehe, ahh! mura man nay sakit sa utok..)*


27 february 2006
8:42 AM
Anatomy Room
Psychiatric Nursing Class

we're currently discussing emotional responses and mood disorders, and dr. lopez mentioned about us being in the monday blues syndrome. i really havent put much thought about monday blues, but ive always heard marlo talking about bein in that state (only, he called his "monday morning sickness"..) everytime he gets to work during mondays. and come to think of it, i may be feeling that now. a hangover from the weekend.

aside from that, i feel soo sore.. i have bruises all over my body. in my arms, legs, chest, my right temple, and even in the groin area. and this is all bcoz of what happened last saturday night. damn. remind me to never do that again. ever.

my dad came home with a bottle of virgin coconut oil yesterday and he insisted that i take it as part of my dietary supplement this morning. in my mind, i was thinking, "why should i? is this supposed to make me a virgin again? let alone make me feel like one?" hihihi.. >=D *evil grin* wala lang.. the thought just popped into my head since my instructor has just slightly, unconsciously, brought up a little talk on premarital sex. but seriously, unsay gamit anang virgin coconut oil? it may just be another fad like the previous lactobacillus was. somebody enlighten my mind please. im too lazy to do research.

the class discussion has slowly shifted into current events. about what is happening to the philippines at the moment. the whole scenario is depressing me. it makes me want to leave and never return to this godforsaken country. with much due respect to the president, she noes what she has to do to stop all this gubot bcoz in the first place, shez the very reason why it is happening. shez just too stubborn to do what everyone noes would be best for the nation. if she has any concern left for this country, she should do it soon. shez even accusin people and having them arrested. pathetic, paranoid, little bitch. this is exactly happened when marcos' power got into his head, thus making him lust for more. putting the country in a state of emergency is just the beginning of gloria's greed and selfishness. history is about to repeat itself.

but as always, the filipino people never learn. we are never contented. be it gma or whoever it is in authority, there would still be those who would be against them, question their legitimacy, destroy them, try to put them out of power and demand that their candidate is better than the one currently in position. and this isnt new anymore. the filipinos always never learn. sad.

okei. nag yaw2x nako.

anyhow, on a happier note, setting depressing and dirty politics aside, i have the feeling that im not paying attention to my lessons anymore. tsk tsk tsk. bad, baby baktin, bad!ü but can you blame me if discussions like this really bore the hell out me? haha. talk about using the defense mechanism Rationalization. (Rationalization - offering a socially acceptable or apparently logical explanation to justify or make acceptable otherwise unacceptable impulses, feelings, behaviors and motives. Principles and Practice of Psychiatric Nursing, 8th edition, Stuart and Laraia, page 269.) see, im even applying nah what i have learned from this class!ü *wink*

haaay. i cant wait for the finals to be over. i can soo feel my finaly year under my nose nah. :D but before that, i have the summer to attent to first! yeeeey!ü beach fun under the sun!ü (whoever thought that i can rhyme too? :p)

cheap thrills in syarlen's life..ü

currently playing>> island of love by big mountain is on my playlist..
im feeling>> i want to pee!!! hehe.ü


i have a busy life. well, at least i believe that i do. having to manage time between school, studying for exams, lakwatsa, sleep, inom sessions and family bondings, i make it a point that in whatever i do, or in whatever experience i come in contact with, i am happy. and that's easy. bcoz for someone like me, MABAW MAN KO UG KALIPAY!ü so making and keeping me happy shouldnt be a problem..

here are just some of the few things that make me happy:

[x] sleeping early and waking up real late..
[x] waking up at dawn just in time to get ready for school. or waking up at exactly 5am and realizing that i still have 30 minutes for additional sleep before i have to heat my water to take a bath.ü
[x] snoozing in between classes when the teacher isnt around.. power naps!ü
[x] early afternoon siestas..ü
[x] actually, just sleep.
[x] receiving emails or phone calls or text messages from jan2x. he. is. my. happiness.
[x] lazy instructors who arrive late for class or duty, allow us to laze around in the ward, give extra long breaktimes, postpone their exams, or cancel their classes. yey!ü
[x] monday afternoon world lit classes.. *wink* ü
[x] meeting new people.
[x] not having to wait long for a jeepney. or boarding a not full jeepney. and no traffic. =D
[x] fast internet connections.
[x] receiving text messages from unexpected people.ü
[x] getting drunk. hangovers always give me a euphoric feeling.. minus the uneasy tummy and labad head.
[x] keeping the change when im bein sent out on buying errands.
[x] early morning sunrise.. i may be a cynic, but yeah.. i love the feeling of "new hope" ;)
[x] late afternoon sunsets..ü
[x] extra long movie trailers!ü
[x] being able to watch a movie in the premiere section even if the tickets bought are for the de luxe.ü woOhoo.. long live tanga watchers.ü
[x] reading a really, really good book. or narrative. or story. or newspaper article.
[x] cute, funny bumper stickers.ü
[x] being able to illegally download a full album of mp3s at less time.ü 1st time this happened, i got the ultraelectromagneticjam. and that took me two days of early morning studying.. (i dont burn cds. i just do so for my own consumption and not for piracy..)
[x] having a crush every now and then.
[x] quarreling, bitching, or just the plain feeling of screaming at someone..
[x] getting a good grade at a test i didnt prepare for. ;)
[x] getting a good grade at a test i prepared for..ü
[x] sleeping in between answering final exams. nursing exam questions are really boring, i tell you..
[x] the beach! i love the beach. i wanna be a beach bum! i wanna live near the beach..ü just neglect the fact that i dont noe how to swim. lol =D
[x] getting a visit from izza and dylan..ü
[x] waking up scared on a late saturday morning thinking that its a schoolday and im already late and then laughing at myself after realizing that its a weekend after all and that it was a false alarm and that i dont have classes.ü
[x] getting frequent bear hugs..
[x] corny jokes.ü mabaw kog kalipay, i swear..ü i laugh at anything..
[x] bumping into my world lit teacher in campus or elsewhere.. and not having the courage to greet him. heheü
[x] having a full meal.ü
[x] burping after having a full meal.ü
[x] not having to hear any cueshe song in a single day.
[x] being of help to other people. ;) i happen to be an angel too..
[x] chocolates!!!ü in any form, size, shape, brand.. im a sucker for chocolates!ü
[x] getting away with something. wahihi.ü
[x] breaking stupid people's hearts.. ;)
[x] receiving a package from my brother in the states..
[x] the rain! really strong rains.ü i love taking a bath in the rain..ü
[x] having a friend buy me something for snacks. boy bawang will do.ü
[x] not having to wait long in a counter to pay for my stuff..
[x] really nice cinematography, graphics, colors..ü
[x] hearing my favorite songs played on the radio..
[x] finishing my projects, assignments or studying days before deadline.. ;)
[x] the smell of my newly washed clothes..
[x] having a fun talk with someone on the phone..
[x] catching friends online sa ym..
[x] being able to come up with something creative, for my blog, for a school project, bastah. whenever i get to make use of my creative juices, it makes me happy.ü
[x] being given what i want, at the time i want it.. ;) brat??
[x] reciting in class. letting out what's on my mind.
[x] when discussing answers in an exam (cheating in layman's terms), and i have an opposite answer from my discussion-mate, and he insists that his is correct, getting the right answer after checking makes me happy. and evil. (kai mu laugh man ko saku cheatmate.. dah! nanu btaw wa ni sunod saku answer! :P)
[x] trusting my instincts..
[x] being asked help from..
[x] accepting testimonials in friendster and comments in myspace, and friend requests sad.ü
[x] being able to smoke while drinking. ;i
[x] crying at a really good, sappy movie..ü
[x] CAMWHORING!!! and getting really really good results..ü
[x] remembering something funny and laughing to myself. or remembering something funny and suddenly laughing aloud and people look at me as if im crazy..
[x] laughing at some silly message sent to me on my fon, and again, having people look at me as if im crazy.. hihi.=D
[x] OR experience!!! talk about hottie doctors..ü
[x] and hottie doctors sa ward sad..ü
[x] eating cotton candy!
[x] hearing good music..
[x] spending big for an entrance to a concert, but then again, getting my money's worth for a good performance.ü
[x] hearing bamboo's sunshine song! yey, i was able to download it nah..ü whee!
[x] bear hugs! kisses on the forehead. kisses on the nose. kisses on the ear and neck (or licks will do. haha. erogenous zones.. ;p). and sloppy kisses.ü
[x] reggae! lift me up. take me high.
[x] spotting really cute earrings in bazaar stalls all over the mall..ü
[x] having my picture taken..
[x] looking at the mirror and seeing a beautiful goddess..ü
[x] having my blog read.
[x] eating siomai.. and getting one free..
[x] losing a few pounds now and then..
[x] being told that i am loved.. and cared for..
[x] seeing cute little pink things..
[x] butterflies! pigs! pink and green. buttercup. piglet!ü
[x] getting something new..
[x] the satisfaction i get after cleaning my room or washing my clothes..
[x] treating myself to food..
[x] holding hands with someone i love..
[x] not having to wait long for my unlimited texting to be activated..
[x] getting into a very heated argument, and winning.ü
[x] seeing a really hot, pretty and sexy chick.. (lageh, tomboy na lageh ko. geh lang tomboy, gwapa man. bigaon pa gyud.. ;p)
[x] being bought something from the supermarket when doing groceries with my mom..
[x] making kikik and getting away with it.. yikesss!! magabaan gyud ko ani bah.. tsk tsk..
[x] having my heart broken (breaking up with jan2x or having a fight with him..) then crying hard.. then getting back with him again. hihi.ü god, i miss him so much.. :(
[x] being able to save a lot from my week's allowance, then spending it during the weekend..ü
[x] white roses!
[x] fireworks!
[x] friday or saturday night laags and coming home early in the morning just before my parents wake up..ü
[x] receiving sad kowtz.. hehe, di man gud ko ka relate sa ilang heartache mao na ma happy ko!ü
[x] dreaming my grand grand GRAND wedding..ü
[x] just dreaming.
[x] not having my white shoes, or my whole white uniform dirty, when it rains early morning when im on the way to the hospital..
[x] reading really lame soapie charts from other schools.. hehe.ü
[x] answering boring surveys on friendster or myspace when im bored.. ;p
[x] the triumphant feeling i get after making poo-poo..ü

there. one hundred things should do for now.. but there's more than just those hundred that make me happy.. surprise me. i love surprises. they make me happy too..ü

useless caffeinated drink..

currently playing>> superproxy by francis magalona in my ultraelectromagneticjam playlist :D
im feeling>> hmm. my hands are tired from writing :(


this is something i came up with kanina in class..


22 february 2006
8:37 AM
room 330, nursing applied science class 3

same old crap. different day.

god, i hate my pathophysio class. its the most boring class ive ever encountered in my entire life, i swear. and to think it's supposed to be one of interest, considering that it studies how diseases come to happen, but this one's really different. it gives a whole new meaning to the word boring!

as far as i can remember, there wasnt a time when i would be studying for this class' exams that i wouldnt doze off in between chapters.. and to think that im a very naning student. geez.

im in the middle of another patho lecture, and yeah, im bored to death. im trying so had to keep my upper eyelids at place in the ocular sinus of my skull, where it should be: UP and OPEN, praying hard that my orbicularis oculi muscles and my cranial nerves 2, 3, 4 and 5 wont betray me at this time. the coffee i brought in the my dad's thermos isnt even taking effect. im reading my notes, trying to review for this afternoon's unit test, but the more i feel the urge to snooze. man, i sooo miss my bed!

so here i am, confined to this old, ugly, dirty, vandalism-full, wooden armchair (that should've been junked ages ago), hearing (NOT listening to) the droning voice of my clinical instructor, keeping myself awake by texting, and obviously writing this thing. even my seatmates are no good at this time too.

god, i am soo bored. help me out of this hell. please.

the goddess, a movie star? hehe.ü

currently playing>> stick with you sa pussycat dolls..
im feeling>> pissed.. (im in a fit with sidney, pisti-pistihon ba ko?)

im supposedly in a good mood. but im hellah pissed gyud! dili pa ganeh uyab, awayon nako! unsa nlng kaha if uyab nah? atay!

but setting bad moods aside, here's something from tickle (i dont like the results though.. pero okei lang, the ass is more important.ü):

Charlene goddess ü, your movie star double is Jennifer Lopez

A magnetic maven like you needs to be played by someone who knows how to get an audience's attention — and keep it. That's why Jennifer Lopez would be a great leading lady in the movie of your life. You've got a certain star quality that makes people applaud whatever you decide to put your energy into. Regardless of whether you match J Lo's glamorous look, her mega-diva glow will help translate your stunning charisma to the silver screen.

Back in high school, were you the one in the spotlight — star of the school play, student council president, and popular girl around town? Well, with your charms, you should have been. There's just something about you that has people screaming for more. But that's a good thing since you probably thrive when you're being social, surrounded by people, or getting out and about.

If some people perceive you as high maintenance, you can just tell them that you have high expectations. If you're willing to work so hard on yourself, why can't other people do the same? So get ready for the new cast in the movie of your life headed by none other than J Lo herself.

ive been sent this quiz by a lot of friends, but its only now that i took time to open it. c kuya eimer man gud ang nag send. :p anyway, his results show na benjamin bratt daw xa? haha. i doubt.ü (patay ko anih if he reads this. lol)