ccmc..

So i finally had the courage to visit ccmc since i left last january.. Only to realize how much i really missed this place so much. :'( what i have now or where i am now can never compare with the fact that most of the happiest moments in my life, i had spent here.. +sigh+ wish i can go back.. but life must go on. at least i have these happy memories to bring back with me when i return to sg.ü

Maturedom.

Had a good heart-to-heart talk/adult conversation with my eldest brother Chris just now over Skype. Im just happy that at least he also understands how it is to be working abroad and earning more than the minimum wage. And that he supports me on the decisions that im making and going to make. And how we both feel about Mommy's being there also, and how i fully understand his side as well. We, my brother and I, always had this weird eldest-youngest relationship. When i was stull a kid and he was still living at home, i would get countless scoldings and spanks from him. But by the time he started working, he began treating us nicely already. I would never forget the weekend trips that he used to arrange for me and Tintin. And now, we have mature conversations already, and that he is seeing me as an adult already, not that little brat he used to displace his frustrations on.

Im thankful for tonight because it's like he has opened a part of himself to his sister. Whatever it was that we talked about will remain just between us, im just happy that im not alone in the feeling of being an OFW. :)

One Tree Hill

currently playing>> "when  i look at you" by miley cyrus
im feeling>> lazy! rainy weather in singapore today :D simply perfect for a lazy day off..ü

so  i watched the final episode of one tree hill last night.. and just like the series ender, it brought back memories as well from the time i started following it and i also got mommy hooked to watching it. we used to watch together, and sometimes mommy would watch on her own, advancing to episodes i havent even seen yet.. like most endings, it was a happy ending for everyone, with their own stories and respective families.

i just think it would have been better if lucas scott was still around and he ended up together with brooke.

this would have been a happier ending.

i used to love OTH a lot, maybe because of its music, the characters, the quotes, and basically because it showed what kind of "love" that i wanted but never had. i havent followed the show ever since lucas left, and i guess i just got curious how this show ended considering i got as far as 6 seasons (the ones with chad michael murray in it).

this show is not just your usual teenage drama, as all of the cast have grown up in the years that passed after high school. i can just assume that the audience for the seasons that followed after high school are the ones who have stuck with the show since then. i grew up with these guys and i dreamed, hoped and learned with them. i just wish that like the cast, i also find the peace, happiness and love that i've always wanted for myself from the start. :)