im feeling>> disappointed, but not totally betrayed.
school is officially over, but this week has served as another learning experience for me. particularly that of last saturday's happenings. i realized that some things will never be. i must have realized it too late. and that's the bad part. too late. the good thing bowt it is, at least i realized it soon enough. haha. okei, anlaaabooohh!!!
one, you can only count on sooo few people in this world. and most of the time, the people you consider as friends are the ones who betray you the most. its either they use you for their greater glory, or, they just use you.two, the most unexpected people are the ones who make you laugh the most. the ones you ask to for help are too busy to make you smile. a real messy beautiful, twisted sunshine..
three, quote unquote from badz: "you can only truly fall in love with one person. and the others? well, they just make your heart beat. you'll get to meet a lot of people but there's only one to whom you'll fully give your heart.." true? TRUE! asa naman akong thweeyiwowdboi oiee?? :((
four, i proved that hula2x is not true. mugna ra gyud na cla. remember when i posted something on palmreading (year end, year start na entry)? bowt what kuya rey said bowt whats goin to happen dz year? well i proved him wrong.. sayup ang iya mga gipang say. wala pakoi na ilhan na tao na iya gi mention ato na "hula".. but heck, its still the first quarter of the year. a lot can happen..
five, sadness is the absence of happiness. doi! seriously, sir januar must have been right when he told me that im already leaning towards the negative end of the mental health-illness continuum. tsk tsk..
six, its already a month or so before i turn twenty. il now be saying goodbye to my yagit2x teen years. but im not ready to grow up yet! *whine* :( face reality, char..
seven, suicide is not something you jowk about, especially when its friends who are of concern.. it is not funny. but i should have learned. i took this up in psych nursing. when will i learn that suicidal ideations are but mere forms of just gathering attention? to be of concern, but not enough reason to splurge load and tears on. And that was blow number one.
eight, half is half.
nine, usahay sa larsian magsakit ang tiyan.. (bibliography: insoy, suroy-suroy, 2003) true, how true.. more on the body's somatic reaction to stress and anxiety.
ten, gary v. shouldnt join kamikazee on stage. ever. its bad image for the band.
eleven, the beach is therapeutic. aside from psychological and emotional healing, it really helps in alleviating cough and colds. but with alcohol and nicotine present, expect the otherwise. two positive forces negate effects.
twelve, i noticed that i have changed a lot this past few days. ive become more patient, and ive learned to control my temper more. change for the better, so to speak, but this isnt me. ive tried so hard, sooo hard.. but to no avail. coz it is he who has changed for the worse. hez not the same person i fell in love with last week and two weeks ago. kinsa man ni siya??
thirteen, moving forward, using all my breath.. making love to you was never second best.. the song! THAAH SOOONNGGG!!! damn the song. i should erase this from my player. but for some reason, i just cant.
fourteen, upload pictures earlier. engk. wrong. clear out pc files earlier. aron mahuna.hunaAn ug sayo kung mag upload ug pics bah or dili. crap. i should have sorted out my pc last march 31. why now?? aaahhh. now i only have less than 20 slots left for pictures in my multiply. the world is going to end nah. ;p
fifteen, its the third day of the month again. another lonely third day of the month. and it sucks. i should just get back to reading.
and lastly, the final blow.. i realized that we would never be.. never comprehending the race was long gone by..
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